Part of me is always so excited for the weekend...to get a "break". Unfortunately "Ed" doesn't seem to take a break....struggling with an eating disorder is relentlessly exhausting and draining to say the least.
I am continuously reminded of how lonely I am on the weekends. It's so hard...so many times when I'm around people, I just want to be alone....however when I'm alone I so desperately wish to have a friend around. I don't know what to do with myself.
My thoughts are constantly consumed with food, eating, exercise....
Sigh, frustrated....that's all. I'm trying not to engage in eating disordered crap this evening...
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